Tagged By *RantsofAWildChild

So Here are My Random Facts: |v| =)

1. I have a phobia of shopping carts behind me in supermarkets.

2. I met my soulmate in a chatroom almost a decade ago.

3. I organize my clothes in my closet by jeans,short sleeves,sweaters,& hoodies (in that exact order)

4. Im terribly afraid to stepout of my shell & sing in public
My own Personal Issues...
(Its like having the feeling that someone is reading ur diary =X)

5. I wear a size 4 in dunks & Im 4 foot 12 lol ..yea i know thats incorrect but it sounds funny

6. If Tupac were alive we'd be married ♥

7. My mom is Puerto Rican & My dad is Guyanese
(I understand spanish, but I biterly blame my mother for not brining me up bi-lingual)

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My Joy.

First and Foremost I have to say God Is Good!!!
Reason being..the loves of my life (my brothers) have been givin a second chance by being released
on Dec 4th, after having 8 months to get their shyt together.
I prayed for them before and Im definitely praying for them now.
Boy those nights were hard, filled with tears
thinking of where they were & why they got there..
pure dissapointment.
Ive heard the statistics of our men in jail and never would I want that for my own family.What got them in there was their own young stupidity and what will keep them out will be their maturity and I hope they used the time inside to reevaluate where they want their lives to go at the age of 16 and 17.




There is soooo much out there for them and I only want them to have the world.They are my rock,my drive, my everything it feels as though Ive been there mother through all these years and I make every advancement to succeed because of them.

Me and these two went through a whooole lot growing up.
Things that will not be aired out but it only bonded us even more.
& Now that I am older and should be able to care for them I cant.
I only wish that I could be closer to guide them in their transition to manhood.
But despite my absence I know God will walk with them and my faith in him leaves me worry free. ♥
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The End of the Year Is Here

So December has arrived, its the end of 2008 and Im in a reflecting mood.
Thoughts cross my mind about where my life would be in the yr O'Eight, what I was suppose to have accomplished.etc.
But now its back to reality and none of it has gone as planned.

4 years have gone by since I graduated high school & this yr should have been my last.
Unfortunetely life throws things in your path that you dont expect.
Especially mine.
I use to be hung up on the whole graduation timing thing,
but everything happens for a reason and I truely believe that.

Within these 4 years..Ive been enrolled in two different universities but I think Im finally on track. Despite the hangups of being an unfulfilled undergrad at Kean to becoming familiar with the "RU Screw", sabotaging my hard earned credits..so back to Kean I go ツ
Surprisingly I'm content, because this was a decision based on what I wanted.
No more stressing the name that will appear on my diploma but rather focusing on moving on with my life & finishing what I started.

I had plans, had my life mapped out at the age of 11 until 25.
Sad, yes.. but true.
But ask me if I would do that again now at 23 and I can't, I won't.
Life is so unpredicatable and so am I..
Hot and cold, carefree and uptight.
The older I get the more I care less to plan ahead.
It use to frighten me not knowing or having an idea of the future.
I guess that stems back from my childhood and being surrounded by uncertainty and disfunction..that I've become some what of a perfectionist.
I'm growing into my own skin slowly but surely, accepting life and everything that goes "wrong" in it, its liberating.

And now its almost time to think of New Year's resolutions,
I use to make a short list but this year I only have one idea.
To Accept & embrace change...better yet..Become change.
In every aspect of myself and my views..
I admire those who think outside of the box..& have no problem with taking risks
But sometimes its hard to break out of old habits.
Im trying day by day.
I guess thats the only thing I can do.. Let go and Let God.♥

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