So yeah there has been holidays in passing enough to blabber about, but ah I havent been given the photos to go with the texts so I'll pass on that. I might once i get them other then that honestly the reason I havent posted is because lately I havent been inspired to. But I felt moved to today so yeah.....Ahem
Its a "New Year" yes..but why front and post resolutions and all that jazz, when in reality its useless. I know what I have to do I know what I should do. So the list is all mentally stored. No outlandish goals for myself, I will not utter bs comments of how this year is going to be sooo different. Oh pleez! ppl say that every damn year. Only difference is the change of date and the attitudes seem to carry over from year to year.
So in saying that there will only be change IF I ALLOW IT TO. Im not going to miraculously change when the clock strikes 12 and the year increases. Its a process and each year I change and do things differently,I'm an Aquarius meaning I'm very unpredicatable, which Ive grown to like that =).
But hopefully this year Ill try and watch what I say to the man I love the most. He gets the backlash to everything and takes it in stride =) I sometimes wonder how he puts up with me. I could go on get the bloggin about us alone lol. But I'll pass on that as well.So moving along....
In essence there are things that I wish to accomplish and change over a period of time not just because its 2009! So to those of u trying to act BRAND NEW or talk urself into it just because its a New Year. Stop it. LoL. You're only fooling yourselves.
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& onto another topic. I may not be holy or what you would call a "church girl".I considered myself "spiritual" not "religious"...and I have my reasons, But just last year I got baptised and found a church home that was relevant to me. & despite not being that "church girl" I have always had a relationship with God, and tried to do right by him.
Even in my darkest moments he's blessed me. I dont know what kind of person I would have been without those trying times. & if it wasn't for my faith and my belief that everything happens for a reason, I dont know where I would be. & for that I'm forever grateful.
I could write a book about my past and my pain. But I'm pretty sure we all could. & actually when I was at my lowest points I picked up a pen and just wrote. Its not my first love of course, singing my heart out is =) but it all depends on what we do with the bad times and how we use it to strengthen us. I spent NYE in church, and brought it in the way I wanted to. Again I'm not trying to come off as some saint because honestly I know close to nothing about the bible nor the stories it tells. I'll get there though. & To tell yall the truth just up until 2 years ago church use to be something that I didnt really care for nor seen the purpose of in all honesty...But, I've had a change of heart and now it does matter to me.
Some of you may feel that its still irrelevant and may never change that attitude, which is fine, but for me it serves a purpose & I can go there all by myself & there I feel closet to God and thats all that really matters. Because at the end of the day, he's the one who loves me and looks after me the most. I'm sure he would still love me as he did when I didnt go, but something in my spirit brings me to go. Its the least I can do with 3 hours out of my whole week. I fell off during the past few months but I'm back at it and I plan on joining the choir to fufill this urge of singing. Maybe after all my shyness this will be the means I need to let it alll out =) Thanks be to God ♥
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4 comments:
I'm glad your back boo!!!:)
I am glad to see ya back as well! I agree about the New Years Resolutions. I didn't make crazy resolutions. Everything I hoped for myself are all things that have been in motion. I am just praying for my steps to be ordered so that they are complete. One goal though is to see 52 Sundays in God's house.
I am soooooo happy to hear that you have a church home. Isn't it the greatest feeling!? It's weird, I grew up in the church, my Gran used to force me to go and I hated it. Then in High School I joined a youth ministry and loved it. In college, I felt too many people went because it was "Trendy" and my dumbass slacked off, but now I'm back at a great home, and I finally feel like I'm in control of my worship. This is how I look at church now, if I can dance and sing in the club, I can dance and sing in church. I used to look at people funny, but now I'm one of them. Whenever you come down, I'll take you to my church. It's great! Be blessed girl!
JG*
thanx Reg! I'm glad I am too =)
& JenJen girl ur soo right!
52 Sundays in God's house is definitely something i'm striving for as well. This year will be a blessed year for us, as long as we have our priorities straight.
And I can't agree with you more!!.. "If i can dance and sing in a club, I can dance and sing in church" When I first joined last year i would u know tap my foot and be composed but my tears would fall none the less. Pastor wasn't lying when he said "if ur neighbor has a stone cold face and isnt moved to praise thats fine but dont let that affect u" and I look around & see some girls my age doing just that. But I'm gonna sing and dance my behind off regardless of whose watching! =)
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