History Was Made

Words can't describe the pride and joy I feel looking at this beautiful family.I witnessed Obama sworn in today as our 44th president while on campus for the first day of class (conspiracy) lol, but none the less I was surrounded with my peers who shared my joy in every moment of watching. Today we all will celebrate, but there will be work to be done and it wont be done over night. For a man to come sooo far and give us all hope is truely nothing less then amazing. When college students and those who have never been interested in politics before in their life rush to a television to watch an inaguration on CNN and trade in their designer shirts for Obama para..it shows that we are definitely in a new age. Im just blessed to be apart of it. ♥


**of course I could go on and on , but less is more in this case
plus im a bit tired but I just couldnt help but post=) **
Goodnite All HAPPY OBAMA DAY!!

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First Post of 09 : 2 for the price of 1 =)

Ive been M.I.A for a month, someone asked me why havent I made any posts. I didnt think anyone would notice actually. But to my surpirse someone did that made me smile =) So here I go... my first post in the New year. O'Joy!

So yeah there has been holidays in passing enough to blabber about, but ah I havent been given the photos to go with the texts so I'll pass on that. I might once i get them other then that honestly the reason I havent posted is because lately I havent been inspired to. But I felt moved to today so yeah.....Ahem

Its a "New Year" yes..but why front and post resolutions and all that jazz, when in reality its useless. I know what I have to do I know what I should do. So the list is all mentally stored. No outlandish goals for myself, I will not utter bs comments of how this year is going to be sooo different. Oh pleez! ppl say that every damn year. Only difference is the change of date and the attitudes seem to carry over from year to year.
So in saying that there will only be change IF I ALLOW IT TO. Im not going to miraculously change when the clock strikes 12 and the year increases. Its a process and each year I change and do things differently,I'm an Aquarius meaning I'm very unpredicatable, which Ive grown to like that =).

But hopefully this year Ill try and watch what I say to the man I love the most. He gets the backlash to everything and takes it in stride =) I sometimes wonder how he puts up with me. I could go on get the bloggin about us alone lol. But I'll pass on that as well.So moving along....

In essence there are things that I wish to accomplish and change over a period of time not just because its 2009! So to those of u trying to act BRAND NEW or talk urself into it just because its a New Year. Stop it. LoL. You're only fooling yourselves.

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& onto another topic. I may not be holy or what you would call a "church girl".I considered myself "spiritual" not "religious"...and I have my reasons, But just last year I got baptised and found a church home that was relevant to me. & despite not being that "church girl" I have always had a relationship with God, and tried to do right by him.

Even in my darkest moments he's blessed me. I dont know what kind of person I would have been without those trying times. & if it wasn't for my faith and my belief that everything happens for a reason, I dont know where I would be. & for that I'm forever grateful.

I could write a book about my past and my pain. But I'm pretty sure we all could. & actually when I was at my lowest points I picked up a pen and just wrote. Its not my first love of course, singing my heart out is =) but it all depends on what we do with the bad times and how we use it to strengthen us. I spent NYE in church, and brought it in the way I wanted to. Again I'm not trying to come off as some saint because honestly I know close to nothing about the bible nor the stories it tells. I'll get there though. & To tell yall the truth just up until 2 years ago church use to be something that I didnt really care for nor seen the purpose of in all honesty...But, I've had a change of heart and now it does matter to me.

Some of you may feel that its still irrelevant and may never change that attitude, which is fine, but for me it serves a purpose & I can go there all by myself & there I feel closet to God and thats all that really matters. Because at the end of the day, he's the one who loves me and looks after me the most. I'm sure he would still love me as he did when I didnt go, but something in my spirit brings me to go. Its the least I can do with 3 hours out of my whole week. I fell off during the past few months but I'm back at it and I plan on joining the choir to fufill this urge of singing. Maybe after all my shyness this will be the means I need to let it alll out =) Thanks be to God ♥

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Tagged By *RantsofAWildChild

So Here are My Random Facts: |v| =)

1. I have a phobia of shopping carts behind me in supermarkets.

2. I met my soulmate in a chatroom almost a decade ago.

3. I organize my clothes in my closet by jeans,short sleeves,sweaters,& hoodies (in that exact order)

4. Im terribly afraid to stepout of my shell & sing in public
My own Personal Issues...
(Its like having the feeling that someone is reading ur diary =X)

5. I wear a size 4 in dunks & Im 4 foot 12 lol ..yea i know thats incorrect but it sounds funny

6. If Tupac were alive we'd be married ♥

7. My mom is Puerto Rican & My dad is Guyanese
(I understand spanish, but I biterly blame my mother for not brining me up bi-lingual)

Tag ur It =)
S.W.C
LaaLaa
April
Realglam
ssencesontriel
Randa
Nesa
......and anyone else who wants to do this =)

My Joy.

First and Foremost I have to say God Is Good!!!
Reason being..the loves of my life (my brothers) have been givin a second chance by being released
on Dec 4th, after having 8 months to get their shyt together.
I prayed for them before and Im definitely praying for them now.
Boy those nights were hard, filled with tears
thinking of where they were & why they got there..
pure dissapointment.
Ive heard the statistics of our men in jail and never would I want that for my own family.What got them in there was their own young stupidity and what will keep them out will be their maturity and I hope they used the time inside to reevaluate where they want their lives to go at the age of 16 and 17.




There is soooo much out there for them and I only want them to have the world.They are my rock,my drive, my everything it feels as though Ive been there mother through all these years and I make every advancement to succeed because of them.

Me and these two went through a whooole lot growing up.
Things that will not be aired out but it only bonded us even more.
& Now that I am older and should be able to care for them I cant.
I only wish that I could be closer to guide them in their transition to manhood.
But despite my absence I know God will walk with them and my faith in him leaves me worry free. ♥
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The End of the Year Is Here

So December has arrived, its the end of 2008 and Im in a reflecting mood.
Thoughts cross my mind about where my life would be in the yr O'Eight, what I was suppose to have accomplished.etc.
But now its back to reality and none of it has gone as planned.

4 years have gone by since I graduated high school & this yr should have been my last.
Unfortunetely life throws things in your path that you dont expect.
Especially mine.
I use to be hung up on the whole graduation timing thing,
but everything happens for a reason and I truely believe that.

Within these 4 years..Ive been enrolled in two different universities but I think Im finally on track. Despite the hangups of being an unfulfilled undergrad at Kean to becoming familiar with the "RU Screw", sabotaging my hard earned credits..so back to Kean I go ツ
Surprisingly I'm content, because this was a decision based on what I wanted.
No more stressing the name that will appear on my diploma but rather focusing on moving on with my life & finishing what I started.

I had plans, had my life mapped out at the age of 11 until 25.
Sad, yes.. but true.
But ask me if I would do that again now at 23 and I can't, I won't.
Life is so unpredicatable and so am I..
Hot and cold, carefree and uptight.
The older I get the more I care less to plan ahead.
It use to frighten me not knowing or having an idea of the future.
I guess that stems back from my childhood and being surrounded by uncertainty and disfunction..that I've become some what of a perfectionist.
I'm growing into my own skin slowly but surely, accepting life and everything that goes "wrong" in it, its liberating.

And now its almost time to think of New Year's resolutions,
I use to make a short list but this year I only have one idea.
To Accept & embrace change...better yet..Become change.
In every aspect of myself and my views..
I admire those who think outside of the box..& have no problem with taking risks
But sometimes its hard to break out of old habits.
Im trying day by day.
I guess thats the only thing I can do.. Let go and Let God.♥

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23 Masks of DeSTiny Fall '08

Congrats to the
Ladies of the Delta Zeta Chapter of ΔΣΘ,Inc.
♥SHY-SHY I See U #12!♥





It was cold out but yall did the damn thing!!

♫Mood Muzic:The Over & Under Rated♫

Release Date : Nov 25th|



::Mr.West::
I have my favs on this album as u can tell by the musicplayer.
*Warning* This is not your average Hip-Hop album.
Hes sooo outside the box, Dares to do what no one has done
and I love that about him.
and by the way His arrogance is my cup of tea =).
Ill be listening to this for weeks to come.
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|Release Date : Oct 28th|



::Joey::
Although I am I heavy soulful music listener when I do get into Hip-Hop mode.Joe Buddens is one of the lyricist at the top of my list.
His song "Just to be different" explains it all.
Too many ppl sleep on this dude.
That just goes to show the direction of Hip Hop as a whole at the moment.
Its soo commercial and its sad.So if you not on to him already.
I suggest you tune in.
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|Release Date : Nov 24th|



::Luda::
Another what I call lyricist,but I have to say this album wasnt one of his bests, It didnt make me feel the need to even give it a second listen.But despite that im sure it has more lyrical content then... *insert name of two stepping dancer/rapper here*

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Real Housewives ATL Reunion Clips

Im not much of an idiot box watcher but when I do engage in it, it'll be tuned into to Bravo.I have to admit I watched the last season in NYC and quite frankly it had nothin on Atlanta. So yes Ill be one of the many eager viewers waiting for the full reunion to air this coming Tuesday.
This season went by toooo fast.Lisa seemed to be favorite until she came off as the anti-confontational "Snitch" but after watching this I was proven wrong. Lisa got some fight in her lol...Im a RHW junkie, sue me =)

H.A.L.F - Viva La Vent "Diva Pt 1"

*WARNING* Not for the Faint of Heart!

OMG so I had to share this, pure Hilarium, Yea I said it lol
I know its not a word but this shyt is beyond funny..
There are going to be ALOT of angry "Divas" after hearing this.
Kudos to HALF I Love it!! If you take offense to this then sorry fa ya,
The truth hurts doesnt it. Aaa Haa

I Have to get it off my chest.

Nevermind trends, nevermind what anyone has to say.
Nevermind those creating a blog to only show how sheepish they really are.
At the end of the day I write because its authentic.
Actually I havent written in years, because I honestly havent felt moved to.
But I guess its time.
Im not at my lowest point as I may have been before,
& even though Im not at my highest either. Im not content.
When I first picked up a pen it came to me just as its coming to me this very moment.

Its not geared for an audience of any sort.
It doesnt rhyme or necessarily have a flow to it...
...there are other times for that.
And right now isnt the time. This is what u call venting.
Even doing so kind of makes me sheepish in a way.
The thing with me is Im not here for anyone nor to put on a show.
Its comes from a real place.
If ur rambling because u fell the urge to from within and u cant help but to use this vevy box as an outlet to ur reality.Do it.
But if you find yourself looking at other pages for inspiration
Becoming someone ur really not..blending in instead or standing out.
Using it as another means for showcasing how uncreative u really r
Addicted to it as if this were a myspace of some sort
.Give it up.

But then again who am I to judge.
Its just an opinion. I cant help but to address.
So again I applaud all the creative minds & give credit when its due.
Just dont get caught up in blogging as if its the new cool thing to do.
If thats ur frame of mind I feel for you.
Just dont look to this page for the latest trend of the time.
Because Im so not here for that.
Thats all I have to say for now.

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Selfish

I ask u for soooo much, I'm just selfish
I was there when u had noo clue what u wanted out of life, I'm so selfish
I take ur words and jokes to heart, I'm selfish
I make a display of my humor at your expense,I'm selfish
I'm patient with u for a whole year after u had 8, but I'm selfish
I adjust to it and say dont get too comfortable yet nothing changes. but I'm selfish
I'm not cut out for this
So Ill just continue being selfish.

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My President Is Black

I was apart of history last night and it feels DAMN GOOD!!!!




As the saying goes
ROSA PARKS sat so DR. KING could walk...
Dr. king walked so OBAMA could run....
OBAMA IS RUNNIN SO OUR KIDZ CAN FLY!!!!!...
ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! & OBAMA IS A SIGN FOR HOPE.

Free TV : Ustream
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Photos from last nights RUTGERS VICTORY PARADE =)
It was definetely a memorable night here in New Brunswick!

His Need.Her Need

A purpose
A reason
A goal
An accomplishment
Completeness…
Because without her, he is only Half.

To grow
To learn from her mistakes
To live out her dreams
To be patient for him...
Because without him she is only Half.

Everything they need is in each other.
But they must find themselves by themselves
Until they can become whole again.

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F.Y.I : History Repeats Itself

Okay so Im at work and I came across a good point concerning Beyonce's new video "Single Ladies" on another blog website.
If anyone knows me they would know that I am in fact a Beyonce fan although I will never hesitate to point out some of her uncreative moments such like today. For those that didnt know like I obviously didnt lol...She clearly reused moves in her video from the 60s Bob Fosse. Again I am a fan but facts are facts. =)Take a look

Seasons

Which one are we in you ask
I’m not exactly sure, but with time it’ll change
Suddenly just as it did almost 10 years ago
Hopefully next time it'll be in our favor
I know things are different now
We have some of our own leaves to shed
It’s only natural.
But as hard as it is it’s out of our hands
Destiny isn’t within our reach
So ill patiently welcome the change
Accepting my own transformation as well as yours
Sooner then later. It’ll be spring again.

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Hunger

“Packing up my shh and I'm going real far
Going off to Hollywood to be a big star
There's nothing here for me so I gotta move fast
And I'm getting on the road and I will never look back
I gotta dream big cuz when it happens its gon' happen real quick
Yes I feel it
I gotta move fast cuz when it happen I cant let it move past 
When it feels like you been waiting all your life for that second
You'll be a fool to just let it past so go and get it
No matter near or far, to the moon, the stars
I'll do whatever I need to follow my dream”

The visions of fame run through my mind
Something I won’t give up before I even try
Will I be good enough? Would I even make it to the top?
Too much doubt overwhelms me so the fantasizing begins to stop
But I’m in too deep and end up where I am now..writing
Writing about love, life, and pain
It’s all just a substitute for what I really want out of life’s game
Its either you’re destined for it or you’re fooled to think you are
Hundreds try and fail believing they’re born to be stars
I feel the hunger for it in my heart
I feel this could be it for me if I only start
But where do I begin? Taking opportunities aren’t as easy as they seem
I wish it was but if I want it bad enough it’ll have to begin with me
Maybe later on I’ll look back at this
And Hopefully it isnt a chance I missed
But I do believe that this could be my key to happiness
And I do believe that I am blessed
Blessed with a talent that dying to be recognized
...If only I try

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“I gotta dream big cuz when it happens its gon' happen real quick
...Yes I feel it
I gotta move fast cuz when it happens I cant let it move past “

Friend

Shady people are all I ever see
Smile in your face but talk about you discretely.
Being the best friend that I can
Bending over backwards time & time again.
Having someone you could fully confide in
Without them changing on you, the chances are slim.
A helping shoulder I lent
Wasted time spent
Always there to vent
Now its your turn to repent
Never once did I betray you
But your true colors seeped through
So I'll bid you adieu
And no longer a "friend" will I label you.

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Stripped

Fondest memories bonded in my mind
Happiness and laughter fading after time.
Sorrow and pain beginning to appear
Loneliness coming closely near.
How can you understand the pain one feels
The heart and soul impossible to heal.
Here I AM stripped of facades you see
And no longer care of how you may judge me.
So accept as I am originally
And let your heart not your eyes see me finally.

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You are

The sound of you brings happiness to my ears
The one experiencing my ups and downs as well as my tears.
The thought of you has an indescribable effect on me
The comforter of my frustrations and agony.
The one who has never let me down when I was in need
Asking for advice and given them unexpectedly.
My first love as well as my very last
With you there are no secrets or no masks.
For you are the one I appreciate each and everyday
Never taking you for granted, despite those that may.
You are the one who encourages me to go on
No matter the time or emotion there’s always a song.
Whether I’m excited or at my lowest points in life
You turn it around and make it easier to sleep at night.
The one whose ending never arrives
If ever such a thing, my soul would surely die.
You are the essence of my hopes and dreams
And I will rest in peace with the aid of you by any means.
Because you are my life, my love, and my world
You are Music. And I’ve been in love with you since a little girl.
An endless love destined for a lifetime
I am forever yours as you are mine.

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Fear

This fear is so deep it kills me.
I watch it, I see it, I feel it.
I am it, but I don’t live it.
Music saved my life, your life, our lives.
But how can it change mines... if I wont allow it.
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